There are some days I just want to get away from everything and focus only on the best things in life. I woke up this morning and couldn’t help but smile. I’ve been doing that a lot lately, and for some very specific reasons. I find my mind is torn.

For as long as I can really remember I haven’t been in that big of a hurry to get out of this place. I’ve enjoyed (most of) my time here, and I haven’t understood why so many people want to leave so fast. Sometimes (especially in the last few weeks) I’ve just wanted to push the giant pause button on life’s remote control and let the moment last just a little longer. Seems like some things are over before we even realize it. We’re always looking to the next thing. For once I want to think about right now and enjoy everything that comes NOW.

Lately though, I’ve also found myself for the first time wanting to move on. To leave here and start the next chapter of my life. I still have a lot of things to figure out about that next chapter, but I know I’m getting burned out on school. I mean I’m still doing all the things I need to do for classes, but I often find myself truly wishing I was somewhere else, like there are so much more important things out there.

Back to my original thought, I’m ready to escape for a little while and enjoy the best in life. Unfortunately, I’m stuck at work, and so some of the best things in life are decidedly unattainable at the moment. At least one of those best things is also in class. I guess I’ll make due with what I’ve got.

I’m listening to the album Details by Frou Frou for the second time this morning. The Van Zile desk is pretty quiet from 8am to noon, so I’m just letting the music wash over me and letting my mind wander. It’s so easy for me to get lost in the music.

As my mind wanders I’ve been wandering online as well. A few interesting things out there. Matt made an interesting observation over on his Xanga. Check out the second to last line of his latest entry.

This is just frightening(ly accurate).

Inmates with playtime to build an underground fort outside the prison fence. Just wonderful.

Ok, I just found a discussion thread about music. I haven’t gotten very far, but there were a few comments that stuck out to me.

Listen to music – don’t compare it to what is or what was. Every tune, every melody, every beat, is it’s own entity. Are there any Led Zeppelins out there? Any Jim Morrisons? Any new BBKings? Any Stevie Rays? Nope. There can only be one of anything and anyone. I love music. If you try to categorize it when you listen to it, you aren’t really listening – you are thinking too much.

Well, being a very critical person by nature (much to my wife’s annoyance), i enjoy picking apart music, going over it in my head, turning up a favorite part of a song real loud in my car nodding my head as my wife has a disgusted grimace on her face. it’s what i do. i do compare, i do criticise. BTW, who heard the newest SUM41 song. it’s a goddam carbon copy of System of a Down, to the highest degree. but i enjoy finding things like that. to me, rock music is a thinking journey, and emotional as well. without the criticism and comparisons and discussions, its difficult to share. thats why i started this thread.

Irony: a next day package just came for someone. I sign for it, then I check the name…it’s for me. Must be the third try to get me the iPod case I ordered like a month ago. Let’s see if they got it right this time.

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Hallelujah. Third time’s a charm. Now the real question is whether or not they’ll credit me to send back the other two cases or not. Time will tell.

Ok, that’s enough for now. Didn’t realize this was getting so long. If you’re still reading, thanks. Maybe I’ll do some real work now.

I couldn’t pick between these two songs as they both seemed appropriate regarding recent events. Enjoy them both.

Currently Playing: Frou Frou – Let Go

Drink up baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
‘Cause it’s all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you’re writing a tragedy
These mess-ups
You bubble-wrap
When you’ve no idea what you’re like

It gains the more it gives
And then advances with the form
So, honey, back for more
Can’t you see that all the stuff’s essential?
Such boundless pleasure
We’ve no time for later
Now you can wait
You roll your eyes
We’ve twenty seconds to comply

Also Playing: Frou Frou – Must be Dreaming

Pay close attention
Don’t listen to me from now
George will be flying this one
And it’s anyone’s guess how he does it
This is my turn
Wrong universe
You’re taking me in full bloom
Viable
Careful with that there
See what you made me do

Must be dreaming
Oh, we’re on to something
Must be dreaming
For, I don’t fall in love like this
Must be dreaming
Oh, wish me to waking
So one day I’ll be yours
As long as I’m losing it so completely