I think I’m going to set some kind of record for consecutive days with at least one post. I feel like I’ve actually got good things to say for a change and there’s not enough people around to tell about them. I can only say the same thing to the same people so many times before they get tired of listening to me, so the rest will probably end up here. It’s amazing how much better (about everything) just a few events can make a person feel. Now, I’ve just gotta keep things in perspective.

Still, it also makes me look back over the last month or two and really wonder how I got to the point I was at mentally. I’m so glad I’m beyond that, but it’s still kind of scary that I was ever there in the first place. What was I thinking? I mean really. Hooray from random chance, come to save the day. Damn those people who told me it would happen. It’s not cause you said it would! 😉

Well, I’m sitting in Putnam for my 12-3, and so far I’m actually still awake. That lack of sleep situation hasn’t really improved much, though I did snooze for about an hour before coming to work. So here’s what I brought to the desk with me this morning: the usual backpack including laptop and some homework that I probably won’t even touch (it’d just put me to sleep anyway), package of Cookies & M&M’s (the most awesome snack ever created!), some beef jerky, a glass of water and the DVD Monster. The last two songs have been awesome, but I’m not expecting that to last long. Well, make it three now.

The door alarm has been going off quite a bit which is probably a good thing. I’m not sure if Monster will be a good movie to watch at the desk to fight off sleep or not. I’ll find out soon enough because I’ll run out of random thoughts to put here. I’ve got the sweet snacks and the salty, with just enough water so as to not have to pee really bad when I have no one to call, but not get too thirsty either. It’s amazing how well I thought this all through considering I was still waking up from my snooze when I grabbed my stuff.

Four songs. On a role. Rock, Rock on. Singing keeps me awake.

Ah, damn. The streak ends at four. Not a bad run though.

Sweet, they play one crap song and back to the good stuff.

As I write: MercyMe – I Can Only Imagine, Coldplay – Clocks, Blink-182 – I Miss You, Ryan Cabrera – On the Way Down, Mary J. Blige – Something I Don’t Even Care to Lookup, Kelly Clarkson – Breakaway

Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?

Am I a part of the cure?
Or am I part of the disease?

And in the night we’ll wish this never ends*

On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself

I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway