I just got off of one of the best 12-3 shifts I’ve had in a long time. Not that they aren’t always exciting, but this time around I actually had people to talk to. Thanks to Jimmy and Kristen for hanging out for some good conversation.

For the first time in a long time everything seems to be going right in my life. I’m actually working hard for my grades, I’m enjoying all of the activities I do for my various organizations (for the most part), and I’ve met a great girl. After some not so fortunate events, I spent so much time last year–and especially last semester–trying to figure things out and make them alright again. The thing is, once I finally stopped trying to figure everything out and make stuff happen, things took care of themselves. Isn’t that the way it always goes?

Conversations like the ones I just had at the desk really help me to realize how much the last few months have helped me grow as a person. I finally feel like I have a grasp on my life and what I want, something I haven’t felt in a long time. Sure classes are really starting to get on my nerves, but there are things that make it all worthwhile. And for a change I’m actually appreciating those things rather than taking them for granted.

I’ve started–well OK, I’ve been headed–down the path of a new relationship recently. I’ve had a habit in the past of jumping from one thing to the next without really taking time for myself in between. The last several months I’ve spent trying to figure out what I want and where I want to be in my life. I’ve come a long way from my low points of last semester and in that time I feel like I’ve really been able to get my head on straight. Then this new relationship came out of nowhere and it couldn’t be better. It just feels different somehow. It’s new, exciting, wonderful, and yes, if I’m completely honest with myself, a little bit scary. But I’m taking everything one day at a time and waiting to see what this grows into. I have a good feeling about this one. Ok, enough pouring my heart out for one sitting. I just had to get that out before I couldn’t. G’nite.

I just heard on the radio that Avril Lavigne is engaged. To the singer of Sum 41. Rather interesting. Maybe she found her Happy Ending after all. Yes, totally cliché. Your Welcome. I wish them the best.

Van Zile is boring this morning. It would have been great to shut off the alarm when it went off, curl up into a ball and go back to sleep. I woke up to the sound of rain on the window and distant thunder. What could be more inviting sleeping weather than that?

Instead I hit the snooze once and got up to get ready for work. I walked outside in the rain (as close as I’ll get today since it stopped) instead of going through the tunnel. I owe someone some time in the rain. Hopefully I can remedy that soon.

Can I just say you are awesome? Yeah, you know who you are. Thanks for the talk last night. I was glad I got to see you. T-minus 3 days until lasagna!

Currently Playing: Avril Lavigne – My Happy Ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It’s all about the song. Doesn’t really relate to my life at all right now. Maybe the first line 🙂

Thursday night. The usual. With a twist. I went to Joe’s and again…enjoyed myself? What is happening to me? I still know that I’m totally white and can’t dance. It’s gotta be the company.

Dylan and I headed to KC with some excellent company on Friday to see Garden State and have some Italian food since that’s something missing in Manhattan. Almost everyone that’s seen the movie has had good things to say, and I can’t agree more. The movie was awesome. It’s just slightly weird, but in a really good way. I bought the soundtrack today, and I’ll be waiting for it to come out on DVD.

After struggling with exhaustion for the last part of the drive back that night, I got up to head out to the game yesterday. This would have to be really the only low(er) point of the weekend, seeing our guys get their asses handed to them by a team that isn’t even that good. This all sounds a little too familiar…Damn you, Fox Sports Net. The saving grace was, again, the company.

Today has been an incredibly lazy day. I managed to sleep until after noon and realized a bit too late that I was missing an ARH event (sorry guys). I’ll probably take some crap for that later, but after the busy week I don’t feel too bad about taking some down time.

My head is spinning. I don’t know what to think. I’m almost overwhelmed. Two and a half weeks seems like nothing and everything at the same time. How did this happen? What if it ends? What if it lasts? What if…

Currently Playing: Silence. Roomies are asleep. And I thought I slept a lot today.

Currently Playing: The Used – Blue and Yellow

And it’s all in how you mix the two
And it starts just where the light exists
It’s a feeling that you cannot miss
And it burns a hole
Through everyone that feels it

Should’ve said something but I’ve said it enough
By the way my words were faded
Rather waste my time with you

Hell yeah.

I have to say I think I’ve been more productive in the last few days than I was in most of last semester. I’ve got just a little bit more reading to do today, and an OTM (of the Month) to finish writing. If you have no idea what that is, feel free to ask me. Anyway, it’s about 8:30am and I have class in three hours. Except for the ongoing assignments projects, I’m almost completely caught up.

Our second ARH General Body meeting was last night. We started off with a little session on Parlimentary Procedure put on by one of our wonderful advisors. I almost feel like people might actually understand the procedures for a change. Unfortunately, one thing I noticed was that someone who arguably needs to have the greatest understanding of Robert’s Rules was paying the least attention for parts of the presentation.

Most of the things he taught us were things I already knew, and I found myself sitting there thinking it was depressing that I was hardly going to get to use any of that knowledge this time around. After all, one of my last votes in spring 2004 was to take away my own vote. By removing suffrage for members of Exec Board, we also removed our ability to make motions or do basically anything besides answer questions and comment during debate. Maybe I’ll try to find a rep to do my bidding…

I really like the fact that the department of Housing here cares so much about it’s residents. It’s great to know that they want our input and that they actually listen to what we say and try to implement our suggestions when feasible. Still, I wish people would understand that not every single persons concerns need to be addressed when the director of Dining comes to talk to us. He’s a great guy, he just tends to be a little longwinded. Add to that the people that complain because they have a crappy schedule (one they set up I might add) and no time to eat, and you have half of our meeting time right there.

There’s also a new position available for CAs. They want to hire a Mail Manager. I’m a little confused/amused by this whole thing. They are requiring that each applicant have been a CA and delivered mail for at least a semester. Well, let’s see…we currently have four mail people, of which 2 are brand new to mail. So they’re out. That leaves two of us who are eligible and currently delivering mail, one of which doesn’t really want the position. I know of one, possibly two other people who aren’t currently delivering mail that might be eligible, but probably don’t want the job because they didn’t want to deliver mail when I asked them at the beginning of the semester. So who does that leave? The person who has pretty much been “managing” the mailroom from the beginning of the semester. Is this some kind of consolation prize? Ok, fine by me.

Looking forward to a trip to KC tomorrow to kick off a good weekend. I can’t wait.

Currently Playing: Kidd Kraddick in the Morning

Rich: I’m in the loneliest place in the world right now: the Men’s room at a Clay Aiken concert. Anybody in here? [Voice echos]

Silence.

Rich: All those who were dragged here by a family member say “Aye.”

About four guys: Aye.

Talking about people being sick.

Dylan: Oh that I got Jimmy sick maybe…
Me: heh
Me: he’s sick?
Dylan: he voice is dropping…
Dylan: maybe its just puberty…
Dylan: he started growing facial hair too
Dylan: lol
Me: hahahahaha
Me: !

The longest day ever. I think my longest break before 10:30 was about 40 minutes. I had 20 minutes to dash to the union for a Mean Gene’s burger, and then it was back to class, then making up a lab. But it’s over now. And I really wasn’t that sleepy except for a few minutes in design. And despite the exhaustion, I’m feeling pretty good. Off to bed I go.

Currently Playing: Socialburn – I’m Happy

I’ve been sittin’ here for a while
Wishing I could finally see you smile
I’ve been wanting to see you for a long time
But everyday I grow farther from
Everything I’ve done and everyone
Here we go again I’m alone now

I don’t know if I’ll ever find you
I don’t know if I’ll ever need you again
Cause I’ve been sitting here for so long
Wishing I could write a brand new song
Maybe it will remind you of a time when

Holy. Crap. 600 horsepower in a sedan. Gotta love that MSRP, too. That’s more than our friggin’ house. (Thanks, Joe)

Currently Playing: Pink – Don’t Let Me Get Me

Doctor, doctor won’t you please prescribe me somethin’
A day in the life of someone else?

Wait…for once, I really don’t want that at all.

Edit: A delivery man just brought someone in Boyd a big carrot cake. I’m so jealous.

I think I’m going to set some kind of record for consecutive days with at least one post. I feel like I’ve actually got good things to say for a change and there’s not enough people around to tell about them. I can only say the same thing to the same people so many times before they get tired of listening to me, so the rest will probably end up here. It’s amazing how much better (about everything) just a few events can make a person feel. Now, I’ve just gotta keep things in perspective.

Still, it also makes me look back over the last month or two and really wonder how I got to the point I was at mentally. I’m so glad I’m beyond that, but it’s still kind of scary that I was ever there in the first place. What was I thinking? I mean really. Hooray from random chance, come to save the day. Damn those people who told me it would happen. It’s not cause you said it would! 😉

Well, I’m sitting in Putnam for my 12-3, and so far I’m actually still awake. That lack of sleep situation hasn’t really improved much, though I did snooze for about an hour before coming to work. So here’s what I brought to the desk with me this morning: the usual backpack including laptop and some homework that I probably won’t even touch (it’d just put me to sleep anyway), package of Cookies & M&M’s (the most awesome snack ever created!), some beef jerky, a glass of water and the DVD Monster. The last two songs have been awesome, but I’m not expecting that to last long. Well, make it three now.

The door alarm has been going off quite a bit which is probably a good thing. I’m not sure if Monster will be a good movie to watch at the desk to fight off sleep or not. I’ll find out soon enough because I’ll run out of random thoughts to put here. I’ve got the sweet snacks and the salty, with just enough water so as to not have to pee really bad when I have no one to call, but not get too thirsty either. It’s amazing how well I thought this all through considering I was still waking up from my snooze when I grabbed my stuff.

Four songs. On a role. Rock, Rock on. Singing keeps me awake.

Ah, damn. The streak ends at four. Not a bad run though.

Sweet, they play one crap song and back to the good stuff.

As I write: MercyMe – I Can Only Imagine, Coldplay – Clocks, Blink-182 – I Miss You, Ryan Cabrera – On the Way Down, Mary J. Blige – Something I Don’t Even Care to Lookup, Kelly Clarkson – Breakaway

Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?

Am I a part of the cure?
Or am I part of the disease?

And in the night we’ll wish this never ends*

On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself

I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

The good: no classes. The bad: I still have to work at 8am 🙁

Considering the very miniscule amount of sleep I got last night, it’s gonna be rough. Then I’ve got a 12-3 later and not enough sleep again tonight. I can’t wait. I really need to get rid of my Tuesday 8-10am shift…

Still, I have nothing to complain about. That weirdness I was worried about yesterday pretty much disappeared (since it never really existed in the first place). Typical over-reaction on my part. All is well, probably couldn’t be much better in fact. Well, ok, that’s not true. No homework or class would improve things, but lets be realistic shall we?

Well, I think it’s time to watch a few hours of DVDs. Wish me luck on staying awake.

Currently Playing Watching: Stargate SG-1

The end of my weekend shifts that is. The last four hours have been the most worthless shift. I spent about two hours cleaning out my webmail inbox (hadn’t touched it since May). The next hour or so was spent trying to configure DB2 to access my database on the College of Business server. Unsuccessfully I might add. The last hour I’ve been looking for stuff online, but I’m out of ideas. Now that it’s over, maybe I can go do something fun with the rest of the day.

Currently Playing: 3 Doors Down – Kryptonite

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be there, holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side with my superhuman might
Kryptonite